Friday October 31
31 October 08 - 06:09
It was such a nice surprise to log-in & see that this blog is still being read! Thank You to all who continue to pray for us & read this blog when I find time to update. I am allowing myself 25 minutes this morning to do this before I start getting ready for work.
I think I will work backwards because my memory is much better for the near past and the far past than it is for a month ago. Last night I was so tired & sleepy from not getting enough sleep the night before. I had fallen asleep in the chair but knew I needed to get Jim back to bed, so I roused myself & got started on the process: 1)Get his bed turned on, bed items arranged correctly, bed pulled out from wall. 2) Make sure his chair is positioned so I can easily get around all sides 3) Remove the tray, the headrest 4) Get the Hoyer in position and attach the Hoyer to the straps on the sling 5) Begin pumping the Hoyer 6) Continue ... (more)
Thursday October 9
09 October 08 - 07:44
It will soon be five months since Jim's accident, the day that changed our lives in a way we could never have foreseen. Sometimes it seems like just last week or last month and sometimes it seems like forever.
Jim continues to struggle. We were told early on that this would happen, that depression would set in, but Jim thought he would be different, that he would be able to handle life as it is now without becoming depressed. But the struggle against anger, depression, sadness, frustration, and apathy is a moment to moment struggle, not something you "decide" you won't have and are done with it for good. There are too many long days & nights of being unable to do the smallest thing like scratch an itch, change positions, know whether you are hot or cold, etc. All these and more are constant reminders of his utter dependence & helplessness and his inabilities. He worries a lot about me & sacrifices some of his needs because he senses or thinks I am ... (more)
