Thursday Evening
26 June 08 - 21:24
Spent all afternoon with Jim after working a bit. He was really tired today, said he had problems sleeping due to needing frequent suctioning & mucous plugs in his trach. Also, he said he thinks when he has a lot of company & he talks a lot it causes increased secretions.
Later this afternoon, he began to get cold & was shivering all over. I put 5 blankets on him & after a bit I asked him how he was & he said freezing. Then he broke down, saying this is really hard, everything that has happened, & he tries to maintain because he wants to be strong in the Lord. He said when he is feeling this way he thinks of Jesus on the cross & Paul & the other Apostles & what they had to bear, and he can't feel sorry for himself very long. (Of course, I cried like a baby & finally he said to me I had to stop crying because he had.) Then we talked about a card Sharon had sent that spoke of crying out to God. I can't seem to get this off my mind & I believe when I am alone this is what I need to do. Jim said David cried out to God in detail. Jim nor I can not even begin to imagine how anyone deals with situations like this without God' s help.
We talked to the Neuro Nurse Practitioner, Donna, about the fluctuating(?) body temperatures & she said this is a direct result of spinal cord injury. This is not the fevers we battled so long, this is 96 to 99.7 We asked some hard questions & I can tell she struggles to be compassionate yet truthful. We have come to look forward to her visits & really appreciate the time she spends with us.
It is six weeks today since the accident. How our lives have changed in this time! How our hearts, our priorities, our direction, and of course our future has changed. But God is good. His Faithfulness, His ever present help, His Presence with us, His stirring the Body to minister to us - alll this & much much more is so precious.
His mercies are new every morning!
Marilyn
