Saturday Evening 10 PM June 28
28 June 08 - 22:01
Jim has had a pretty good two days. We have been focusing on Scripture & just talking with each other. We are allowing each other to see & experience the other's grief more openly. I continue to be amazed at the strength Jim has through all this. Yesterday he asked me to read from the Psalms & said he wanted to hear David's crying out to God. Just as I have been thinking about this, so has he.
I do need to make a correction. It was a card from my almost family - my sister-in-law, Sherry's sister, Joyce - that sent the note about crying out to God. Today in the mail was a book The Power of Crying Out from Joyce. I read the first chapter aloud to Jim & we are both wanting to learn more about what happened when God's people cried out to Him. We were wishing we could have a Prayer Meeting in his room to cry out to God.
One of the things we miss is the privacy we once took for granted. I was explaining to Jim today that lthough Superstition Mountain has not changed, the beauty of the desert around our home has not changed, and none of the things we shared together have changed, I don't really "see" them much anymore. My focus is on being at the hospital & taking as much care of him as I can and beauty is seeing him comfortable, positioned correctly & smiling when he sees me.
This is a particularly hard weekend for me; Josh & Monika leave Monday morning for Kentucky. I know I have friends I can call on, I know that many of you are praying for Jim & me, but my youngest is leaving, Monika who is truly the Daughter of my heart is leaving, my Mom is gone & all settled in her new home & I will have no family here. So, pray for my loneliness, please. Jim & I, Mom, & Josh & Monika spent many, many Saturday evenings here at home together & most always Sunday after church. I know my Lord is with me & I know He loves me more than any other person ever could. And I do know He will enable me to deal with the loneliness.
Continue to pray for Jim's cough to strengthen, his stamina to build, his body temperature to stabilize, sensation to continue to return & voluntary movement to begin. The spasms continue, so wrenching at times he cries out. These spasms make moving him or touching him difficult & the force of the spasms have rubbed sores on his Achilles. He has special boots to wear that float his heels - no pressure - & prevent foot drop. But the force of the spasms caused his leg to rub raw against the lambs wool lining. He can not wear the boots now until the sores heal. And remember we see the Neurosurgeon on July 10th, hoping to get the OK to remove the cervical collar.
This blog has become a diary of sorts for us. It gives me the opportunity to share our prayer needs and the day to day happenings of this journey. Thank you that for allowing me to be candidi & share my heart & my hurts with you. Jim asked that I let you know about one of the Therapists who picked up the book I Am Not but I Know I AM, that Miles is reading to Jim & then he & Jim then had an opportunity to talk about the Lord together. These incidents let Jim know that God is at work, right there in his room. Pray that more people who need the Lord or need prayer or whatever God knows they need will be assigned to Jim's room. When these things happen it is a blessing to Jim as well as to the other person & really lifts his spirits.
Also, a special thanks to all our friends from DBC. We love you! We thank our God upon each remembrance of you....
Marilyn
two comments:
Dear Marilyn and Jim,
I heard about Jims accident when we ran into Lynn and Les one day. I was so sorry to hear about all that you are going through. Wow how a life can change in seconds. I really was blessed reading about your daily joys and struggles. You have tremendous Faith, and Love for God who is in control of everything. He WILL NEVER EVER LEAVE YOU. He loves you tremendously and knew you could handle this through HIS strength. He says when we are weak HE is STRONG. I pray that you are encouraged this weekend even with your daughter leaving. I pray that GOD will give you a blessing in some way. I hope you can feel his hugs. Thank you for sharing your life with us. My friend said in a bible study the other day, “When God is all you have God is all you need”. I thought that is so true. You are very special people. Love Laurie, and Rob Hillman from DBC
Laurie Hillman () - 29 06 08 - 00:40
You can be certain that your friends are reading your blogsite and praying for both of you specifically for the needs that you request. God is faithful.
Elaine Cook () - 30 06 08 - 01:53
