Thursday Morning, July 3
03 July 08 - 06:55
They were able to reduce Jim's oxygen to 1/2liter. I tried, at Jim's insistence, turning it off completely, but again his sats were all over the place & his heart rate was going up, so it was put back to a low setting. For some reason Jim was very anxious last evening to the point of asking for medication for anxiety. He told me he did not think he could stand it 8 more days and nothing I did was right enough - pillows, head, upper body, etc. When we position him it takes anywhere from 8 to 12 pillows. He is having more sensation; yesterday he could feel his forearms. It seems that as sensation returns it makes him more uncomfortable. Still no voluntary movement.
So, today pray for: Patience for Jim, peace as the days wear on & the reality of this situation becomes more & more "alive" to him, pray he will regain the ability to swallow, pray for the his acceptance of what is now yet not give up on what can be, what God can do. All the doctors & nurses have warned me that he will go through a period of depression; so far they have been wrong. Pray that Jim's anxiety does not lead to depression. A couple of times he has said to me he is just a "head", or he is trapped inside his own body. In one sense he is trapped & right now the only voluntary functioning part of him is his mind. Pray that he will use his mnd to pray & commune with God & pour out his heart to Him. It is hard because of the lack of privacy. If he weeps he cannot even wipe away his own tears & I have to do this for him. I think you can see how helpless one could feel in this situation. I will share these verses with Jim today:
Job 4:3-6 Surely you have instructed many, And you have strengthened weak hands. Your words have upheld him who was stumbling, And you have strengthened the feeble knees; But now it comes upon you, and you are weary; It touches you, and you are troubled. Is not your reverence your confidence? And the integrity of your ways your hope?
Ps 6:2-4 Have mercy on me, O LORD, for I am weak ; O LORD, heal me, for my bones are troubled. My soul also is greatly troubled; But You, O LORD — how long? Return, O LORD, deliver me! Oh, save me for Your mercies' sake!
Isa 40:29-31 He gives power to the weak , And to those who have no might He increases strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, And the young men shall utterly fall, But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.
2 Cor 12:9-10 And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness ." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Marilyn
four comments:
Dear Jim and Marilyn,
I do not know if you will under stand this but Praise the Lord! I believe this is part of the returning of his ability to be whole again. this is as my neighbor had said it seems from your blogsite information. It is a HARD ROAD
and I will continue to pray that the Power of the Blood of Jesus will embrace both of you and bring forth a full recovery. the Power of the Blodd of Jesus is an Awesome
book I will try to find one and send it to you.
Love, Tom and Lynn
lynn - 03 07 08 - 16:22
Just laughing at my typing I really must spell check next time. I have been putting in extra hours and it shows!
Hope this made you smile.
Lynn
lynn - 03 07 08 - 17:06
Hello Jim and Marilyn,
Enjoyed our visit Jim. I wrote down all I could as you shared. Continue to seek Him in the highs and lows. Both of you are wonderful examples of this.
In Him,
Jim Green () - 03 07 08 - 19:58
I’m so thankful that feeling is returning to Jim’s arms. It seems like baby steps, but God works in His own time and at His own speed. I am praying for Jim’s complete healing. God is a God of miracles. Praise Him!
Elaine Cook () - 04 07 08 - 00:20
