Monday September 8
08 September 08 - 15:37
Hello Everyone,
I keep thinking about writing here, but wonder sometimes what to say. The days are incredibly busy just caring for Jim & the weekends are long. Jim & I have struggled with depression over the last few days, but Jim is making a concerted effort to keep me "up".
I spoke with an attorney late last week & she told me because I work Jim will not quailfy for Long Term Care. She said I could legally divorce Jim & then he would qualify. But this is not an option for us. Scripture is very clear about divorce and we will not compromise our belief in God's Word to meet some government requirement. I know many have different views about this, but this is our conviction. What has become apparent to me is that everytime I think I have it all figured out, I find I really don't. It is a lesson - an on-going lesson -in really trusting God to provide for Jim & I. This is something I have personally wrestled with for years. Letting go of my personality traits that want everything lined up neat & tidy, living each day fully trusting in Him, NOT WORRYING, etc.
Last week I went to get all of Jim's medications filled. Our insurance has denied coverage of the meds for the spasms and they are quite expensive. I walked out of Wallgreens $200 poorer, came home & opened the mail & there was a check from friends, saying they felt God told them to send this to us; the check covered the cost of Jm's meds. WHile I was so grateful for the check, I was more awed by God's provision. On the day of need He provided. It was a wonderful experience! And these kinds of incidences happen over & over where God is providing for us in so many ways in addition to monetary ones.
We have long time friends, Mike & Judy, coming to do Jim's range of motion & help around the house with whatever needs to be done - painting the ramps, taking care of the pool, anything that is needed. Friends at Skyline are bringing meals & visiting with us. A couple I have known for several years - the husband Steve is also a quadriplegic - are loaning me the use of his van to take Jim to the doctor; Miles will be going with me to give me needed support on our first venture outside the house. It just goes on & on!
Now, about Jim. He is really doing pretty good. He is still not as stable as he will be in a few months, hopefully. There are still issues with secretions from his lungs, the spasms which are fierce & attack his whole body, the blood pressure and body temperature. He is sleeping better and he is up in his chair whenever I have someone to help me get him up. I can get him out of the chair & back to bed by myself, but Ihaven't tried getting him up alone yet. Most of the time his spirits are good. He, as well as I do have our times of feeling down & sad & we cry together, but this is not an every day occurence, just sometimes.
Prayer Needs: Sell the van so we can buy one that will accomodate him; decisions about the future such as when to sell the house, where to live, how to accomplish all this. The man never called back about the piano, so it is still for sale. Jim's truck is still for sale & we are reducing the price on that. Strength for me, continued healing for Jim. The Peace that is beyond understanding when we are down.
In Him, Marilyn
one comment:
Marilyn & Jim,
Thanks so much for the update. I have been continually returning to the blog to get word on how you are doing. I am so so sorry that life is so very difficult right now. I pray blessing all over you both. I know that God will honor your decision to keep the marriage legally in tact, even though this world we live in says it would be better not to. You are living out God’s desire for us to “Be in the world, but not of the world.” He will honor that! Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Susie Pontious Wellborn
Susie Pontious Wellborn () - 12 09 08 - 07:18
